I came to a sad realization tonight. I can barely remember the two most important people in my life.

Tomorrow is the 5th year anniversary of my grandmother’s death – my grandfather had passed a number of years before – and I find myself unable to remember their voices, laughs, or anything really unless it’s in little flashes of a memory.

This really hurts because I want to remember them, but I worry that in a few more years I wont be able to recall anything… and these people raised me, took care of me, gave me everything I ever needed or wanted – they made me who I am… and I can barely remember their faces unless I look at pictures.

I feel horrible about this.


ANCHORAGE, Alaska – The Discovery Channel says the captain of the “Deadliest Catch” fishing vessel Cornelia Marie has died.

Capt. Phil Harris suffered what his family described as a massive stroke on Jan. 29 while the boat was in port at St. Paul Island, Alaska. The 53-year-old fisherman was flown to Anchorage for surgery.

A Discovery spokesman says the Harris family contacted the network Tuesday evening with word of his death.

Discovery Channel spokeswoman Elizabeth Hillman issued a statement on behalf of sons Jake and Josh Harris. It says in part, “It is with great sadness that we say goodbye to our dad — Captain Phil Harris. Dad has always been a fighter and continued to be until the end.”

In the network’s own statement, Hillman says, “We will miss his straightforward honesty, wicked sense of humor and enormous heart.”

There are no words to express how sad this news makes me. 😦

Are you kidding me?

Pack of feral beagles frightening Long Island residents

That was the headline on yahoo news just a bit ago.

I mean… Really? They’re Beagles, not mountain lions.

Link is beside himself

The little woman from Poltergeist died.

Her name was Zelda

Swing and a miss.

Well, today was an interesting one. I had a doctor’s appointment seeing as my lab results came back finally – I had blood drawn, pee… donated? I was poked, prodded, squeezed, examined, looked upon and studied.

The result?

Kidneys – Fine
Heart – Fine
Blood Pressure – Low
Good Cholesterol – Low
Bad Cholesterol – Low

Overall I seem to be fine – if nothing else, my body appears to have low expectations for itself.

Oh and I am STD free. Woots. Now I can relax and not worry about who Ive been with, and just worry about those I will be with.

On an unrelated note – How are you, Bacon?

And yes, I have trademarked that word – cockassery. Everytime some one says it, they have to give me a quarter.

So I am sitting here at 8:34 AM. I have been FUCKING around with Google for the better part of 3 hours to get at my goddamn password for youtube. You see, rather than apply the same password to EVERY single service I use on the internet, I like to mix the shit up, that way if I become compromised in one area, there is a metaphysical firewall guarding my other shit. Or something.

ANYWAY – I sometimes forget my LOGIN names, requiring me to send password reminders out to various email addresses to get my logins, so then I can apply the core…. you know what… you don’t really give a shit, so I’ll get to the point.

I was a fucking dumbass who assigned 2 youtube accounts to the same email, shrugging off the knowledge that Google is run by a bunch of idiots with huge ePeni and little brains. SO when sending a password recovery, they simply give me a link to RESET my existing password to a new one – but seeing as BOTH accounts are on 1 email, and programmers at Google BLOW GOATS, when I reset the password for my primary, and hit OK, it JUST FUCKING LOGS ME INTO MY MUSIC ONLY YOUTUBE ACCOUNT, and does JACK FUCKING SHIT to my primary account for which I FUCKING NEEDED ACCESS TO BECAUSE I … I just goddamn do, ok?!?

So then I decide… Ok, I pretty much know what I need to do – Delete the music only one, and make a new one on a different email. So I delete that one, resend a password recovery for my primary account… what happens? SAME EXACT SHIT, only instead of logging into the now-deleted music account, it simply brings me to the main Youtube page, with a little red banner that says account deleted.


…. PS… I still think Gmail is pretty rad.